84. Remembering who TF I am -- a ramble from heart! {Solo Episode!}
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I believe in miracles
I believe that the Universe is conspiring in my favor
I believe that I decide and the Universe begins over delivering to me
Its like when you order an 8 piece wing and you somehow get 10...
I believe and know life to be that way..
and the universe DOES NOT discriminate..
it does not give a shit where you are from, who your parents are, what you ate for breakfast, what color your eyes are, what your past looks like, and really whether you are a "good" or "bad" person.
The universe just looks for the frequency you are putting off and matches it... tenfold.
So when I began spiraling as I was wrapped around the porcelain god, emptying the contents of my stomach throughout my pregnancy... most of it was truly out of my control... and in that space for the first time in my life I felt like a victim.
I mean.. I had many opportunities prior to that to feel like one.. but in this moment I really claimed the space of being a victim.. things were happening to me rather than for me. I felt like a victim to my circumstances, and I began to allow those emotions to manifest into beliefs.. and I began moving.. talking.. and living as though I was the victim... and guess what...
The Universe over fking delivered.
I began to eat shit sandwiches for breakfast, lunch, and dinner.
- My whole savings that I worked hard for dwindled when I was pregnant and couldn't work.
I enrolled in a business mastermind that was epically unaligned and instead of allowing it to be just that, I began to weave into my story of how I was taken advantage of ... which is valid AND not the way in which I view myself (the real me).
- The tax bill came in and was an additional 10k higher than what I paid in quarterlies!
I sent the money over and cried at the dwindling number on my account... its all going to disappear and I am so sick I wont be able to stop it was on repeat in my head, the biggest weight sitting on my chest, and feeling like my throat was closing.
- Our roof needed to be replaced and the insurance wasn't going to cover it. We fought for 5 months to get them to cover and they finally covered less than half...
its rapidly decreasing.. what are we going to do? I have money going out and none going in...
The bill for the mastermind would process each month and I continued to reinforce that it was all leaving me...and guess what it did. While I stood there..debilitated by the emotion, the trauma, the beliefs, and therefore the energetic space I held myself in...
and it continued for a total of like 16 ish months.
Until one day I realized...
I am functioning from fight or flight
I am functioning from fear
I am functioning from lack
ALL places I do not function from... by choice.. by my very existence...
So I changed it..
I shifted my thoughts in that moment and remembered....
The Universe is ALWAYS conspiring in my favor.
I am surrounded by miracles, the biproduct of miracles, and a fking miracle myself.
Things can't help but work out.
and even further leaning into the space of...
What magic, miracles, and mysteries will happen today?
How does it get better than this?
I wonder... what possibilities are possible for me now?
Oh how I leaned into the possibilities through being the question... embodying it fully..
Are you taking note? I am giving you so much right here on how to create your dream life!!
I watched as everything changed as a response to me recalibrating with me...
the key piece th
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