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I Don’t Know If I Can, But I’m Gonna Try

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Let me start by acknowledging my dad's 99th birthday today. Born on September 29, 1923, he's seen quite a lot in his lifetime. Geoffrey "Jeff" Cantrell celebrates his 99th birthday today I grew up hearing, "You never until you try." I wish I could say that trying was always easy. My biggest fears as a kid involved girls. Go figure. Logically, I was bold. Practically, I was a coward. My best friend had a girlfriend, but no car. I had a car, but no girlfriend. He wanted to go out on a double date so he began pressuring me to ask out somebody. Anybody. I had a friend - she was in our social circle and we shared many classes - who I liked. She was attractive and popular. We were at his house mulling over a strategy and I mentioned I'd like to ask her out. He was less than encouraging telling me that she'd never go out with me. Stupid on his part since he had no car and was wanting me to ask out somebody. Oh well. We were 16 and not terribly savvy about such things. I pushed back asking him, "What's the worst thing that can happen? She rejects me." His stupidity continued though, "And she tells everybody she knows, which is EVERYBODY." I'm in his room thinking that if she does that it'll have a lifespan of less than a day. High school drama about something so small is sure to be bested by something larger within a 24-hour high school news cycle. But I was scared. Scared to dial the number. Scared to talk to her. Inexperience does that, which is why my favorite quote remains... Everything is hard until it's easy. Nothing about this was easy. Dealing with my friend. Working up the courage to figure out what to do, and what to say. Controlling my heart rate. It was all hard. Eventually, I dialed the number and asked her. She accepted and my buddy was completely blown away. The guy just didn't know when to quit being stupid. It took a while before he celebrated the fact that we now had the double date booked - the double date he was desperate to make happen. No, at this moment after I hung up the successful phone call he was dog-piling the whole situation with disbelief that the endeavor had proven successful. I didn't know if I could, but I tried. Turns out I could get a date with a girl who my buddy thought was beyond the reach of a troglodyte like me. I was younger than 16 when I first picked up a guitar. I wanted to learn. So I bought a book. I tried. Well, okay, maybe that's too strong a term to describe my effort. And maybe I was less motivated for this endeavor than I was in asking a girl out for a date. Weeks passed and it seemed to me that my mind just wasn't going to cooperate with me learning the play the guitar. Even if my mind did kick in, I wasn't sure my hands would comply. Besides, there sure seemed to be a lot of math-like skills required. YouTube didn't yet exist. Neither did the Internet. Cable TV either. We were still burying dinosaurs in those days so everything was harder! I don't think I lasted a month. I gave up. I tried and failed...destined to own guitars from then on, but never being able to play on. Trying doesn't insure success. Trying harder won't either. Sometimes we fail no matter how hard or how long we work at it. During a late-night headphone music session Gavin DeGraw's song, "I'm Gonna Try" began to play. It's an older 2013 song of his that I hadn’t listened to in a while. I'd already been thinking about a few things I wanted to try as we're making some changes in our life. I wasn't thinking too much about whether or not I could because most of the things I was pondering were things I was 100% confident I could do. I had been thinking about time together with my wife. There's lots of time wasted apart doing what has to be done to sustain life. Tons of things involved in just daily living. You know. We all know. Our to-do list never seems to get fully done. It's less of a list and more like a never-ending cycle.
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Let me start by acknowledging my dad's 99th birthday today. Born on September 29, 1923, he's seen quite a lot in his lifetime. Geoffrey "Jeff" Cantrell celebrates his 99th birthday today I grew up hearing, "You never until you try." I wish I could say that trying was always easy. My biggest fears as a kid involved girls. Go figure. Logically, I was bold. Practically, I was a coward. My best friend had a girlfriend, but no car. I had a car, but no girlfriend. He wanted to go out on a double date so he began pressuring me to ask out somebody. Anybody. I had a friend - she was in our social circle and we shared many classes - who I liked. She was attractive and popular. We were at his house mulling over a strategy and I mentioned I'd like to ask her out. He was less than encouraging telling me that she'd never go out with me. Stupid on his part since he had no car and was wanting me to ask out somebody. Oh well. We were 16 and not terribly savvy about such things. I pushed back asking him, "What's the worst thing that can happen? She rejects me." His stupidity continued though, "And she tells everybody she knows, which is EVERYBODY." I'm in his room thinking that if she does that it'll have a lifespan of less than a day. High school drama about something so small is sure to be bested by something larger within a 24-hour high school news cycle. But I was scared. Scared to dial the number. Scared to talk to her. Inexperience does that, which is why my favorite quote remains... Everything is hard until it's easy. Nothing about this was easy. Dealing with my friend. Working up the courage to figure out what to do, and what to say. Controlling my heart rate. It was all hard. Eventually, I dialed the number and asked her. She accepted and my buddy was completely blown away. The guy just didn't know when to quit being stupid. It took a while before he celebrated the fact that we now had the double date booked - the double date he was desperate to make happen. No, at this moment after I hung up the successful phone call he was dog-piling the whole situation with disbelief that the endeavor had proven successful. I didn't know if I could, but I tried. Turns out I could get a date with a girl who my buddy thought was beyond the reach of a troglodyte like me. I was younger than 16 when I first picked up a guitar. I wanted to learn. So I bought a book. I tried. Well, okay, maybe that's too strong a term to describe my effort. And maybe I was less motivated for this endeavor than I was in asking a girl out for a date. Weeks passed and it seemed to me that my mind just wasn't going to cooperate with me learning the play the guitar. Even if my mind did kick in, I wasn't sure my hands would comply. Besides, there sure seemed to be a lot of math-like skills required. YouTube didn't yet exist. Neither did the Internet. Cable TV either. We were still burying dinosaurs in those days so everything was harder! I don't think I lasted a month. I gave up. I tried and failed...destined to own guitars from then on, but never being able to play on. Trying doesn't insure success. Trying harder won't either. Sometimes we fail no matter how hard or how long we work at it. During a late-night headphone music session Gavin DeGraw's song, "I'm Gonna Try" began to play. It's an older 2013 song of his that I hadn’t listened to in a while. I'd already been thinking about a few things I wanted to try as we're making some changes in our life. I wasn't thinking too much about whether or not I could because most of the things I was pondering were things I was 100% confident I could do. I had been thinking about time together with my wife. There's lots of time wasted apart doing what has to be done to sustain life. Tons of things involved in just daily living. You know. We all know. Our to-do list never seems to get fully done. It's less of a list and more like a never-ending cycle.
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