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New Special Series: 12 Steps to Complete Healing; My personal journey through each step of recovery. Step 4- Make a searching and fearless written moral inventory of yourself. This is the most difficult step for most people. This is the step so many people decide to jump off the “wagon”. They don’t fall off the wagon, they jump off. Step 4, when done correctly, is without a doubt one of the hardest things one can ever do. I’ve been around 12 step groups and people in Recovery since I was 18 years old. When attempting to work the steps forward myself, I would always skip step 4.
I would go through the motions, I would pretend to do it. But in reality, I had never done a real step 4 ever before. Finally, after my relapse and near-fatal overdose, I was able to do a rigorous searching and fearless inventory of each phase of my life. Working with a therapist, I was able to discover some things from my childhood and teenage years that I had absolutely no idea were affecting me so much. Without doing an honest and fearless inventory of those stages of life, I would have never processed those things that I had suppressed deep down in my soul.
The discoveries were shocking, difficult to revisit. But in the end, they were the watershed moment that I needed to heal and move forward on a solid foundation. In this episode, I discuss that process and the shocking things I uncovered after burying them for nearly 2 decades.
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